I figure it's about time that I start being real about my problem....... I'm addicted to food, and as unshocking as that may sound, considering my weight, its a real problem that I'm faced to deal with. Sometimes I feel alone in my walk of obesity, but its becoming clear that I'm not alone.
I have never told anyone how much I weight and it kills me that even my doctor knows so this will be the first time in my life that I'm going to be vulnerable about my baggage. My goal of this blog is to be open about my lifelong struggle and to maybe be a light in the lives of others with weight issues.
Being a bored/emotional eater means that I have so much inner emotional work to do on myself before I will ever be successful in keeping weight off. I hope this blog will allow me the opportunity to "vent" some of my struggles, and to clear the air a bit in my life.
I hope that you will follow me on this journey that I'm going to be pursuing. I admit I'm a little flawed in my writing so things may not always be grammatically correct, nor do I want to place a filter on my emotions. If either of those things bother you then I may be a burden of a blog for you..... sorry
For today I will let you know my first weight loss goal. I would like to be a size 14 by October 15th 2012. Currently I'm a size 26/28 (depending on brand). I don't really want to make a specific weight a goal of mine because I'm built bigger. I am one of those so called "big boned" people. It wouldn't be realistic for me to say I want to weigh 130 pounds because I would look awful. I know that I want to loose weight until I feel comfortable about myself and I'm able to say for once that I'm healthy.
I will however, be keeping track of the pounds I'm loosing so that I can motivate others as well as myself. I know it takes a little longer for it to appear that someone is loosing weight so I will give a weight update weekly, as I will only be weighing myself once a week (to keep my sanity).
I guess all I need to leave you with now is how much I weigh...............................................................375 pounds is a horrific number to me, considering my scale only goes up to 400. Today is the first day of the rest of my life and I never want to see 375 again.
I am so proud of you, honored to have you in my life and humbled by your honesty. This is an amazing journey you are beginning and one I hope to join you on. Being over 300 lbs is hard to admit and you are right in that you are not alone. I too never wish to see these kinds of numbers again either so I look forward to following your blog and also trying to get healthy myself...May God bless us on this new journey!
ReplyDeleteDevonne, I am so encouraged by your blog. It takes a lot of courage to write about personal struggles, but weight seems even more sensitive. I am moved by the blog and would be honored to walk on the journey with you, especially being neighbors. Thank you so much for sharing your heart with us and trusting us with this struggle.
ReplyDeleteOh, how I love you Devonne! Your amazing. I am so proud of you. I very much look forward to your blog. You really are a great writer, and were born to blog lol. I have to mention my favorite part of this entire blog.....NO filter on emotions, and how you give people permission to leave if it burdens them. That is so important! Reading that made me love you even more. Is that strange ?!?! I know you can do this. Can't wait to hear, and see the results.
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ReplyDeleteWay to Go. It is so hard to be dead honest and lay it out there. I am very proud of you. I am also starting a weightloss and exercise routine. I am so sick of being tired, in pain, and breathless. I will look forward to your blog. Love you Sister! Verlinda